Angst

There definitely is a lot of angst in this blog lately.

Not very healthy, I guess, for the people writing it or for the people reading it.

*shrugs*

Well, Aunty, you are right. It is not your fault. It is the fault of higher management who doesn't know how to appreciate their existing employees. Employees, whom they say are experienced and were the longest in the department. Like I said, if you have prior or even relevant experience in this industry that we're in now, itwill make the bitter pill a lot easier to swallow. Heck, I will even understand it.

But your 5 years experience is in another, totally different industry. Do you actually get that? Sometimes I feel you don't and that makes me sad. But you have your right to defend yourself. And correction, I don't have a few years experience in this industry. I have 1 1/2 years experience. I don't like inflating my years of experience or my know-how. Whatever's the truth will be the truth.

I don't know how this can resolve but yes, I've also learnt a hard lesson. In fact, I am on the unjust end of this hard lesson... but then, you may beg to differ. No more being so kindhearted, especially in work. I will still refer people, I guess, but I think never to the same department. And only if the person has relevant, said experience. To think I was the one who encouraged her because the people in my department is nice and I also want her to work in a comfortable working environment. Come to think of it, I did help you get a part-time job before when we were in our college days ,didn't I? Maybe you don't remember it already .....

Prettily Aunty, if you want me to feel better, maybe you can try to make yourself more 'useful' in the office. I'm sure you can see that most of us are busy up to our necks. Some of us are already suffocating. Instead of blogging from work or taking naps, or closing your laptop way before work ends, maybe you can offer to help us with our work. Administrative kind that shouldn't be too difficult. Then maybe, I say maybe, I will feel a bit better.

Sorry how I can be brutally honest. It's my big mistake. You are in a way kinda innocent to be caught in this crossfire as well. I know that but I'm only human and it's difficult for me. Probably you will never understand how I feel as you can be quite oblivious to all this sometimes. You may be angry but think about this, if you can.... put yourself in my shoes. How would you react? What would your feelings be? Think of all this and then you would have learnt empathy.

Could be that I have to learn graciousness & you, empathy?

oh, the irony of it all... stupid you-know-who!


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